Talked to a broken man today. Seems his life is going well, the addiction has been surrendered, he is overcoming, marriage has been healed, life appears good. But sometimes our sins drag behind us for years and years. Jesus has paid the penalty for them but often times the ramifications of those sins like echos in a canyon can come back at us in time. Sometimes we feel them immediately and other time they take years and when it takes years they return to us in a whisper that screams down our souls.
He fears for his kids. He fears that those wasted years where he was angry, bitter, struggling with his addiction & disfuction that God graceously forgave still effected his children. He fears they sowed deep seeds of fear, doubt and skeptism. Now that his kids are coming of age God doesn't seem to be the hunger of their souls.
That is a price too high to pay. For the first time in his life he relates to Paul's letter wishing that if he could he would be cut off for God for the sake of his people. This man wondered how someone could ever write that. Now he understands...now he would take that deal. He would trade his own soul for the souls of his children. But that is a price he can't pay and a price that he can't control.
Jesus paid the ultimate price but the price of effecting a life down the wrong path can be forgiven but it's too much of a price of a father to pay and forgiveness only makes the blood flow faster down a wounded heart.
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It seems that too often when making a choice we fail to consider the consequences of our choices down the road. I am sure those that find themselves in difficult circumstances wonder was the choice that put me here? We need to consider the ramifications of our decisions on ourselves AND others.
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