Ever feel like God is teaching you to be angry?

I'm dealing with a huge issue where I work. I was asked to take on some large client and now that things have slowed down the client where I was getting more of my work has been taken away and I feel left out in the cold in the middle of a ression. I feel deeply mistreated, disrespected and used. Now the guy who took over for me was fired and they have given the account to another man who has little experience. The logic is that they want their best sales person out on the street picking up new accounts. What angered me is that for my talent they are tossing me out to the street in the middle of one of the worst economic downturns in resent history. I don't like the amazing disregard for my financial security.

But now I have a decision. God has allowed this. They couldn't do this without His permission, this doesn't mean it's His will but He did allow this. This is the second time that this company has made these decision and each time I get very angry and express it clearly and then I let it go. This time my decision is to simply get busy and not train someone to replace me. It is so hard for me to be tough but not get rude, get bitter, get sarcastic. It almost exhausting but wow what a challenge. I seem to be forced back into this corner where I'm being trained to be tough and honest without being rude & resentful. Wow, what a challenge.

I've always been this person who just caves in and does what I'm told or I get angry and childish. I go passive and then steam deep down inside. Now God seems to be teaching me to be angry, express it but then let it go. What a lesson...